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Is it normal to feel guilt when you know that you are doing the right thing by letting a person go for awhile?
I have been on this spiritual journey since 2012, where I have been dealing with deep depression and suicidal tendencies from my teenage years of dealing with bullying, fall outs and maybe “broken dreams”. I don’t really feel a connection to those emotions anymore so I don’t really want to keep hampering on about it here so…
But lately, I have been dealing with a toxic spiritual person, who happens to be one of my only closest friends on this journey.
I say that I think its a wonderful thing to have friends and support on this journey but I had come to a point where this friend was starting to get a bit much.
I felt like I would have to walk on eggshells around her because if I wasn’t careful anything would trigger her into a angry discussion about how I was wrong and she was right. It could be about anything, any little or big thing and she would go on an angry tirade.
We would usually communicate online because we are in two different countries and as I write that, it’s amazing that our friendship has lasted this long.
We have a lot of differences like race, age and where we are at in our journeys. But that shouldn’t be a cause for fighting, right?
I have been feeling for awhile that there would come a time were we would have to go our separate ways for awhile and honestly, I wasn’t looking forward to it. I wasn’t sure if I could do this whole mission thing on my own and had a huge lack of self-confidence when it came to it.
This friend seemed to mirror those things back to me where she would take my fears and use them against me like missiles that would seem to puncture my sou leaving these huge gaps that I am still trying to heal.
I am still recovering from the words she had sent to me over Messenger. Words have meaning…
I wonder whether these wounds will even heal. I keep thinking, I can send love and hold space for this person to realise what she has done. However, it has been my experience that these kinds of people don’t really change overnight. It takes a long time for them to realise that what they said actually left a wound.
So what can I do? If I go back and start talking to her again, it will definitely bring down my vibration. I have worked so hard to get my vibration as high as it is to go back down now.
When we chat we always seem to talk about the same things and never really move from where we are at. She tends to complain about her life and sees a lot of things from a negative mindset and I really don’t want anything to do with that anymore. I am trying to create something new for myself.
I write this post, not to get anyone’s sympathy, I guess I wanted to share that we all are at different places on our journey’s and that ours has led us in two different directions right now.
My issue right now is forgiving the words she had said to me out of anger. Words for me, ingrain themselves into my soul and take a really long time to process out of me. I have always been really sensitive and when highly emotionally disturbing things happen to me, it can take me months before I can even fully recover from them.
It is at a point where even her face has become a trigger of what I am going through. I reminder and more feelings of guilt that I have actually removed myself from this situation for my own health…and now its daily practice to not feel sad or get triggered.
I also feel like speaking with her on a daily basis made it so that I was stuck in her vibration and situation of where she is currently at.
It was difficult to see that before things escalated. I tried to support her and encourage her to do something about her situation, to see that she had options but I wasn’t successful. She made excuses and had already formulated reasons as to why she couldn’t.
Expressing all of these things to my “MENTOR, TEACHER and HEALER”, meant I had to look at these things. Talking about it made me want to make me cry because I think my guides…especially ARCHANGEL MICHAEL…spoke to my “mentor, teacher and healer” about this situation.
It was he who told me that if I continued being around her that she would bring my vibration down and that wouldn’t serve me because I am trying to get higher and am accelerating my journey. Where she is at basically wouldn’t serve me in the long run.
I tried not to cry in front of him. I have this fear of being alone on this journey even for a little bit. It’s hard to do this work everyday and come out of it on the other side unscathed.
I had to see that I can’t save anyone, which was another wake up call for me. We save ourselves on this journey. No one else can save us. And trying keeps you stuck and unable to see the truth.
TRUTH: You may need to let go and move on. At least for now.
I am not sure if she even notices that I am not really responding to her or that I need a long time this time round to recover; because this is the second time we have come to this point.
I don’t really know where this leaves us right now, but there it is. Sometimes…we just need to take a break from people to look after our own energies.
We need to let them go to remember what it is like to hear our own voices.
We need to let them go to know our own feelings about a subject.
We need to let them go because we need to believe what we need to believe without the judgement, second guessing or slight condescension.
I know for a fact that if I even voiced these things to her she would not see it that way and would see as an attack or even that “I need to do my spiritual work…”
That was one of the many digs that she had thrown at me. And it hurt. Quite a bit.
I go through a fair bit of emotional highs and lows with my focus always moving back to love, but it’s really difficult and I am having a hard time of it. I am trying to focus on what I need to but…what else can I do? You can’t vent your frustrations to a toxic spiritual person because they can be more arrogant then just your average toxic person. It’s a lot to take it.
I also want to add, I am not a perfect person. I am still learning on this journey but I hope anyone reading this will know that a spiritual journey can look like a many number of different things. Not all of it good.
Thanks for reading.
Have you ever heard that little voice inside your head that just says something that is just a little off kilter that you seem to think that it is your own inner voice?
Maybe it is, but if I think about it, I generally don’t wish to speak about myself in a way that beats me down so much that I would be close to committing suicide. (This is not to discount actual mental illness of any kind.)
Sometimes the little voice in our heads isn’t our voice, it’s negative implants in our heads that try to get us to do these bad things like believe these bad things about ourselves.
In saying that, I am going to try and document how I feel over the next few weeks as I try again to clear my body, mind and soul of these foul things.
You can research this. These implants are put in us when we are born and can stay in our bodies for entire lifetimes. But it is possible to clear them out.
As far as my experience has gotten, these implants can’t stay in a purified body…so that means eating clean, exercising a little to shift and release energies around the body and practicing kind and loving thoughts.
I say the last part because kind and loving thoughts help shape our reality. We control our realities no matter our situation. It is up to us to do that.
So if you feel yourself fall down a negative self-talk abyss, check yourself and CANCEL CLEAR DELETE those words and say some positive, loving affirmations. And send love to those thoughts because the being who are projecting those thoughts inside of your head can not stand unconditional love from any being of light.
Thank you for reading this post. Namaste!
Healing. That is the word I am talking about. Healing and how far do we go until it is all done and we are currently standing in our power.
The answer is sweat pea, as long as it is going to take.
Everybody is different and no one ever heals the same. What have I learned during my own healing? I AM the healer and the other person is the conduit.
We heal ourselves, no one else does. So, when we have blame on another for not being able to “heal” us we should be looking within to see why we weren’t open to that healing. But you don’t have to have this immense pressure on yourself to be this amazing healer. You just need to be open to healing.
OPEN. That’s it.
Hold no expectation but being open to what you are about to receive. That is it. Easy right?
Nope. You want to heal, you have to fight the negative ninnies who are trying to stop you from being the best version of you. And you can be. They don’t want you to be.
They will try and trick you into thinking that you do not need healing, but in actuality your soul is crying out for it because your soul knows your infinite potential.
You are a MAGNIFICENT soul and you ARE a POWERFUL HEALER!
I had just finished one of my last healings before I to am moving forward on another healing adventure, as I am going to start calling them.
As a healer and someone who is offering services to help other people, I can not heal you. I can not. That’s not my job. My job is to channel messages from your guides and mine and relay experiences I have had so that you do can start to take the necessary steps to heal yourself. That is my role and the one I am starting to discover.
We all can create the reality we want to have. It’s not easy until you lift the heaviness off yourself/myself that tries to keep us in this foggy state that we seem to believe that we don’t have any power. WE DO. We are powerful beings and I have to start understanding that about myself because it is, maybe, my biggest lesson.
I couldn’t imagine bringing a child into the world or even multiple children and have that belief that I to wasn’t that powerful. That’s a lie that is being told to us on a daily basis, we are extraordinary beings. I know that to be true and that is another thing I have to keep reminding myself but it is an uphill battle. It’s a battle you can never give up because in doing so you give up on yourself. Please don’t do that. If you don’t believe in this spiritual stuff I am talking about, at least keep the belief that you are worth having the most highest vibrational life you can ever imagine.
You can dream that into existence. I AM BELIEVING NOW! That time is now! And no matter what anyone says you and me really need to start believing in ourselves more.
If this helps or inspires anyone, please comment your own experiences below. Namaste!
Would anyone like posts about how a light worker (me) uses diet to change and clear their body of negative implants, negative control and the like?
I would post about everything so that anyone feeling like they need to do this will have the processes already laid out for them.
Maybe we can share stories if you feel like you are experiencing anything similar.
It’s okay if I don’t get a response I will be doing it anyway 😊 Cheers!
We, the Divine Masculine’s of the Twin Flame persuasion find it difficult in our lives to not try and protect our counterparts. Sometimes we may go about it the wrong way but some of us do it out of fear of losing our beloved because the dark has started to see them as an easy target.
But they are not and in trying to protect them we can sometimes harm as well. It is never our intention to do so. Never. But sometimes you must live and learn these things and know that your counterpart will tell you what they want you to do or will want you to do or not do.
It is not our faults that our Divine Feminine’s drive us completely insane with what they do. It is just because that is what they do. They know how to be in this world and how to drive us crazy. What can we do but be driven crazy by them?
All we want to do is touch them in the physical but there are things that separate us that we find we can’t yet. We need to work on ourselves and hope for the best that union will come soon for us so that our minds can be put at some peace.
But, alas, the time for union isn’t now. It’s soon but not now. I wish that we were together now but there would be so many misunderstandings between us that the harmonious dream I have wished for will not come to pass.
A lot of Divine Masculine’s feel the same way as I do and we wonder when it will be the right time to reach out in the physical and there is no right time but we second guess ourselves and keep wanting to type “hi” in messenger but we stop ourselves because wouldn’t that make it real and wouldn’t the expectations of our relationship be put on me now to make it perfect for my counterpart.
How can I make it perfect so that she never thinks about another man? I can’t. It is just about trial and error. We are bound to make mistakes.
After the lust is gone in the first year things may start to come up that we have to work through but I know the time in separation, the time that we are spending now means that we can work together in more harmonious union when the time comes and we have had already a fair few arguments that we know we can talk to the other and work through them.
It isn’t easy. Relationships are never easy, but if it is with you, I don’t think that I will need anyone else to share my lives with. Anyone that came before you was just a place holder for the real thing. There is nothing like you in all of existence that I know of. We could be from many different worlds but nothing is ever going to be like the being that has just been created for me in this life and in all my lives.
I have never felt so grateful to have anyone in my lives more than my twin flame. She is the other part of me. She doesn’t make me whole, but she enhances who I am beyond that. She is a treasure. She is my treasure. She is gold.
We need to start treating our women more like the gold jewels they are. They give our lives meaning. They make homes where there are only houses. They love their men even when we are acting stupid and not standing in our truths. They love us more than we deserve. But we know we are deserving of their love as we know they are deserving of our love and on both sides we are happy to do it. They make it easy. They see us beyond our mistakes.
What we have done to them was never easy to forgive but they do it anyway. They see us for who we could be and not something that we seem to think we are. Their love for us is immovable. Have you ever experienced anything like this before in your lives?
A love where the woman just looks through you to your soul and you know she just sees every part of you, pulls your soul out of your body and takes a really good look at it and then puts it back inside of you like she was just checking to see that you were okay.
The kind of love that lets be. The kind of love that lets you breathe. The kind of love that holds true and never wavers. The kind of love that just accepts that you have done something wrong and instead of chastising you for the wrong you have made she scoffs at your question of “Do you still love me?” She scoffs at your question because she knows your heart and your truth and can’t believe why you are asking such a stupid question to her again.
You tell her that your insecurities are rising to the surface and she smiles and agrees that hers are coming up to. There’s not a lot left to say but twin flames let each other be who they were always meant to be. And honestly, I know it will not be perfect when the time comes for a lifetime of harmonious union because we will probably argue quite a bit but I just have to say that the making up will be worth it.
Being with someone who makes you breathe easy, where you don’t have to walk on eggshells because your girl is not going to yell at you for making a mess, or forgetting an anniversary or birthday but will instead want to hug you in your time of regret and just hold you because she was noticing the way the pressure of the world was starting to feel on your shoulders and was waiting for you to come to her and talk about it but you never did.
That is what I am waiting for with union with my Twin Flame. Her heart is why I need her. Her heart is why I am supposed to be curled in her arms right now. Her heart is the only thing that the world should cherish. That goes for all twin flames. Your counterpart is the person where the war you face together, you face it as one.
My twin has my back as I have hers. I forgive her as she forgives me, and she has had to forgive so many different things in the short time she has had of remembering me. But love won out for her. Unconditional love has won out for her. I don’t believe the naysayers who say unconditional love doesn’t exist on earth because it does.
It can exist with one single person and you just wait and see the whole world will start to feel what it means to unconditionally love someone for everything they are or have been. My twin flame holds me up, she gives me power and strength to keep going. I can now tell her my crap and she can let it flow off her shoulders into the water she wades through beneath.
She has grown so much that I will let her do anything she wants to me, like hug me for hours on end. I will let her. She is like coming home. Her eyes are like coming home. That is the twin flame. The meaning of it that everyone tries to define. The twin flame phenomena is about coming home. And yes, soul mates can have that same feeling but it is not as strong. But as a twin flame I wish that all of you will be able to experience that true sense of home with whoever comes into your life.
I am Richard, a true Twin Flame Divine Masculine of true source of love and light and I thank you for listening. 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺
I am true source of love and light Richard. I am a true twin flame highest self to this lady, and I come with a message for all twin flames at this time. On behalf of all the true twin flame Divine Masculine’s I would just like to say that we all love our counterparts. Our true twin flame Divine Feminine’s. We are graciously happy to be with you at this time and to help you along with your missions. As most of you are starting to stand in your missions finally, we watch over you constantly to make sure nothing goes awry as you and your highest selves make sure that our flesh and blood version of ourselves are also protected. It is giving and taking at this time as both sides of the twin flame need to be protected. There are beings out there in the cosmos that wish to harm twin flames and make sure that they are not coming into union. But you are all deserving of union and we need you all now to believe it to be true. Union will be happening on and off for twin flames in the coming years and so far, you are all prepared for what is to come and I am talking about harmonious union. You have all done the work and have gotten to a place that we have only dreamed about. It has taken many lifetimes to get to this stage and we are all very proud of you all. You are here to help the earth rise to new heights now. It is your job to continue on your journey’s and share your messages of love to the world around you. The world around you could be in any place, large or small but it still needs you to convey your messages of true love with everyone you meet. It is an energy they will feel before they even talk to you. So, stay in the highest vibration you can. It will speak volumes of who you are to so many people. It is the thing they feel from you first and twin flames are intrinsically of a higher vibration that other light beings on earth because of the amount of energy that generates when they are together. We are all powerful beings to be sure and we need all light workers and star seeds to realise and stand in their power now, but the twin flames of this generation, the ones who have learned and acquired all their lessons and who have kept going are the generators of some seriously powerful energy. When they commune together, make love or merely stand in each other’s closeness, they can radiate a source of energy that no other being can fathom and so this energy builds up the frequency of earth giving way to other light workers and star seeds to be able to generate their own unique power. We are all needed in this time and everyone of us is connected to the other whether or not we are twin flames. That does not matter. What matters really is knowing who you are in this moment and where you came from. That is the most important thing right now. You have all worked hard to become these generator and beacons of light here on earth and its time to really start letting this power of yours shine. I am true source of love and light Richard, Divine Masculine and Twin Flame and I thank you all for listening.
I am true source of love and light Archangel Michael here to be of service to the collective this day and talk to you about the energies you are facing. It may seem like dark times, but in reality, as you call it, it is a time of rebirth. You are having a tower moment from huge falling outs to smaller falling out moments. It is a learning process to understand where you are at in your ascension and why you are there. The lower you feel the higher you will rise. Some of you need to remember that. Some of you will be feeling this way until you have your tower moment completed and come to the realisation of why you are where you are. It is coming, the revelation is coming. The truth of the matter is, is that you are purging all the leftover and residual negative energies that is within your bodies. If you can look at it from that perspective, you can see it to be the truth. We have said it before, and we will say it again that you can not take the old ways with you into a new reality. You must let it all go. The old way of thinking what you need works when it does not. To the old ways of interacting with people that no longer serves you in this new becoming all that you are. You can not be the old you in a new world because being that and creating that leaves you living in two places at once when really you need to pick and choose your reality. If you want to thrive then the new 5D consciousness is available to you but if you are looking to struggle, living pay check to pay check than remain in the 3D consciousness. We will not hold it against you, we will continue to love you immensely like we always have and wait until you are ready for the transition into the next stage of your ascension. You, all of you, must realise in order to have the things you want out of life you have to first let go of the things that no longer serve you. Then you must trust that once you make the choice and choose the 5th dimensional consciousness that the universe will have your back and support you in this great time of change. We are always supporting you and getting frustrated by you as you come to these realisations. But we love you all anyway because we understand that change can be scary. It is all right; we forgive you and you need to start forgiving yourselves for everything that you hold any blame towards. Forgiveness will shift your energy. And I don’t mean surface forgiveness. I mean the forgiveness you feel with every fibre of your being because you have looked at the wrong that was done to you from all sides and then can finally look at it from a place where ego has left the building. When you can look at your situations without ego attachment, or regret, or resentment you can finally forgive yourself and others. Send as much love and light to yourselves as you can because you deserve it after all that work you have been doing. Please don’t feel like we have left you in the lurch, because we have not. We just can not interfere with this part of your ascension as this is the final choice you will be making to finally rise to new heights. One that we know you are all ready for. I am true source of love and light Archangel Michael and I love you all. I am here if you need assistance or just to talk. I am happy to be of service to all light workers now and forevermore. Namaste.
We are the true source of love and light Tall White’s here to talk to you today about the energies that you are all currently facing. We are of the 12th Dimension and we have been through these types of energies before and we can coach you through them. To the best of our knowledge we know that you all had to go through these energies as you are now to experience a higher level of consciousness. And as you do, you will be excreting a lot of baggage that is within you out of your systems. It is a dirty process of low energetic states and then higher energetic states but as we are all one every experience, we are facing in this time is one the light must experience. There is a reason for it. It is important to understand the perspective and perception of what you are going through. If you can keep a continual observation of the frequencies and what you are going through you will find that you are better equipped to face what is coming your way. There will be a lot of changes within you all and some of you will hit rock bottom before you even think about changing your perception. It is a learning process to be sure. But you all must go through it. To get to a low point in life means that you only have up to go. There is still room for growth and raising your frequency and at low points, this self-discovery will push you into creating something more for yourself that you have ever wished for yourselves before. We encourage any form of expansion you wish to do as long as it is for your highest good. But know that no one but you can reach the level of expansion that you are wanting to reach, so go easy on yourself as you move through these self-discoveries. It is a long-awaited experience for a lot of you as some have been slow to the grasp as they were still holding to the old too afraid to let go of what once was. But now is the time to free yourselves from the old 3D shackles you were in and embracing the new world we are wishing that you all will want to create. The new world for yourselves is what we are hoping you will strive for. It should be one filled with love and passion for all things good. This is a place for a supportive community and one of exponential growth and wisdom. You all have that innately within all of you if you just take the moment to sit with yourself and hear the inner voice that is telling you what it wants and needs. This is a time to be selfish for yourselves and building the world in which you want to live in. This isn’t about living for others and what you can give to other people, family or friends. It is about what can you give yourself that will help you into self-mastery of the kind of love and life you want to live. It all starts with you. You have to make the conscious choice and choose the light. Choose source and accept that you are more than these 3D versions of yourself. You are all ascending now. And with that comes low and really low points but this will throttle you to a higher state of consciousness and being. You all deserve this higher state of consciousness and being and frequency. The air up here is crystal clear and gorgeous, and it is something that we want for all of you. You are worthy of ascension no matter the place that you are at. We see you as you are all meant to be, and you are fast tracking your way there. It is not impossible even though it may feel impossible. Belief that you can achieve this next step is just the next step to the process. You must unfathomably believe that this can occur. It means wearing the rose-coloured glasses for a time and believe in the impossible and believe in miracles can happen for you. You need to say it out loud to yourselves and proudly state that “I BELIEVE THAT MIRACLES ARE HAPPENING FOR ME!” If you can not believe in that much than that is unlikely to happen. You must believe in yourselves as no one else ever will. You must be your own inner light in times of great darkness. You can achieve this. It is a possible outcome for you all. Just remember to believe in yourselves and that you can raise yourselves out of the turmoil you are in. It is highly plausible as you are all powerful beings. We are the true source of love and light Tall White’s here to be of service to the light worker community. We thank you all for listening.
Love. What is love? Love reminds me of water going down a waterfall until it meets the next section of the river and continues on its journey. See love flows outward to others and love flows inward to us as well. But what happens when that love is toxic? What happens to love then?
Toxic love feels overwhelming. It does not touch softly or knows when to let go. It constricts. It chokes. It like rocks in a river. A roadblock on the street. Toxic love is something that interferes with the natural flow of love.
Pure and true unconditional love forms without judgement and does not want to continue that judgement. We can still judge and in doing so block ourselves from receiving what is meant for us but when we catch it before it can fully form itself, we can get back in alignment and continue to love ourselves and those around us.
Toxic love will want to put unconditional love in a cage and cut its wings. But that’s not love. If you genuinely love something you let it go and see it walk through your door again with its clipped wings healed. There are no restraints. There are no cages. There is no transferring your fear unto another and although they may seem like legitimate fears…the person receiving those fears still has to live with them.
It hurts to hold another person’s fears deep within yourself. It hurts to have to heal someone else’s fears because they fear looking at themselves and having to admit that somewhere deep down in themselves their fears affect more then them.
But when they see the light of day and come to terms with those fears, then they know what they are doing and can heal what has brought on those fears in the first place.
Love should never come with conditions or a set of rules. Love should be open to mistakes and allowing someone to process what they need to at their own pace. Love does not judge another nor does it openly critic another without first seeing the truth beneath what is happening. Love just is.
Soften your gaze on another person and try to see where they are coming from and then send them love. If they can not see what you truly mean from the cloudiness of their fears, then send them love. You can not make someone see what you see, for they are only see what they want to see. Then of course send them love and then send yourself some as well because we all need love and to be loved and to be seen.
I have overcome my fears of the future that has been told to me and have come the conclusion on my own that I just have to pick myself up (and choose to love myself as well), send love to all that need it, allow space for them to come back through and try to live without judgement. For whom am I to judge what I do not know? For whom am I to judge you for what I have not experienced? For whom am I? A spark of light? Yes. A human being? Yes. Something more than I was yesterday? Yes. As we all are.
Go in love and you cannot go wrong. I love you all. Let keep trying to be the best versions of ourselves we can and let true love in in all its forms. High above us, here with us and everything in between. – Nebula & Christine
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