Tag: energetic

it’s the huge turn of events energetically and i feel like my world is going in another direction. i’m happy about it. but there are things that i have to let go now and i’m not sure if i am ready to do that.

i found out some things about my twin flame that weren’t desirable and i don’t know what to do about that. maybe let that situation go entirely. i don’t think i will be getting into union anytime soon because so much has happened. so many lies. i don’t do lies. it seems like my counterpart liked the fact that i let him get away with so much “out of love” that he thought he would get away with what he has been doing with other people. i can’t forgive that. it’s one of the boundaries i had set with him early on. don’t lie and don’t cheat. he did both. so i don’t know what to do right now. it’s a place that i thought i would be in.

the 21st of december 2022, is a day of great change on so many levels but i am not even in a place to manifest anything that i want. i had a plan for myself, an expectation and now i just feel this dark blob of hatred. was this how it was always supposed to go? my twin would do something that i could never forgive him for so that we don’t get into union, even though all my guides say we do. it’s seriously doing my head in. i’ve given up on that part of the journey and am looking at other aspects of my life to focus on. i can do it on my own. can’t i? i’ve done so much already on my own (with my guides!) but i’ve worked so hard. what i am most mad, angry, pissed about is the level of perception he tried to do with me! the situation filters in to remind me about what he did that i remember the hate and the disappointment. i then feel all his thoughts and the emotions of guilt that i will not take on and tranmute for him. i will not be helping him with that.

i’m writing this because i don’t have someone i can talk to about this. my guides can only say “it’s going to all work out! you just watch!” but the inside of me is silently screaming and imaging inflicting the worst pain on my twin flame.

The insanity of the twin flame journey is real. i just wish i had someone to talk to who i could trust with the worst parts of it.

Thanks for listening.